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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

if im given a chance to decide on which nationality to be in,i'll never in a million years stay a singaporean.cause they all dont fucking possess any right human values!
i lost my phone again,uncanny thing is that i rmb losing my other phone sometime at the start of last year or the year before.urgh seems to me like it's part of ny to lose a phone.
left it on the cab home and it was actually left on cause i managed to call through a couple of times until that asshole turn it off-ed.
anyway that bastard has to figure out whats the number for my pin code
dad got freaking mad with me last night so i guess i'll be without a cell until god knows when
so if any kind fellas reading has any extra cell to lend,leave me a tag

here's three cheers to the fucking dog year


hazel Y 7:46 AM |


Wednesday, January 25, 2006

irksome people


hazel Y 9:20 PM |


Monday, January 23, 2006

i was doing cny clothes shopping yesterday and while was in fareast's inebox(is that the shop name?) i was introduced to this american brand,babyphat,and only that shop in fareast carried the brand's goods and OH MY GOD I WANT TO OWN ONE!
their designs are so pretty and only a few of these bags(like less than 10?) are only shipped into singapore at each time,damn and plus prices of these must-haves are sky high(330 plus)
):

just look at this;





i wantneed!
i wantneed!

anybody wanna be my sugar daddy?


hazel Y 9:16 PM |


Saturday, January 21, 2006

currently listening to Sugababes' New Year
weekends are hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!:D
finally i can get ta slack a bit,sheesh this week's been all bout books,been having lessons till 5 for me everyday and besides that i have tons of homework to complete in the night,dang and sometimes if i can i might squeeze gym in after school,hah,and today i had piano in the morn followed by aunj's math tution and then i went gyming!haha today's workout was uber great,cause ive burnt 900+ calories!yay
then rushed home ta bathe then out again for chem tution
urghh and finally home.(: am gna do some more studying to make up for tmr cause im gna do cny clothes shopping tmr!:D and prob catch memoirs of a geisha,tho it got some bad ratings,o wells
went tp open house yesterday,not bad!:D definately one of my top choices right now for next year!:D
o,im thinking of cutting my hair!haha go short...?should i?
alright im tired of blogging!
have a blessed sunday!:D


hazel Y 8:49 PM |


Wednesday, January 18, 2006

im actually adapting to my new lifestyle pretty well,haha!thank god
3 min break right now form homework,haha ive been studying ever since 8 this morn come to think of it
cause school lessons start at 8,then till 1.35(but lit lesson ended late for some of us cause we were doing lit classwork) til 2 where math pass prog started,then till all the way till 5 then i went for mavis physics class at 6 till 7.30 and rushed dad to drive faster home so i can start on the many homework i have, bathed and started homework from 7.50 till right now.
hah!what an achievement


hazel Y 9:35 PM |


Monday, January 16, 2006

ah!i was expecting a better week but no!
firstly i got home not long ago and i discovered to my horror that my nice shiny red cbean mug(below)

've been scratched!
ah!
ah!
ah!
now it's no longer shiny and clean,damn must be i hit it while walking through the shortcut home,sheesh!):
and secondly,i totally jinxed myself alright!if ya have been reading faithfully,i was just talking bout becoming a frikkin nerd in my prev post,and hell yeah!i am gna be a frikking math nerd starting tmr alright,you know why?!?! wna know why?!!!!!
I HAVE TO FREAKING STAY IN SCHOOL FROM 2-5PM STARTING TMR EVERYDAY FOR EXTRA FREAKING EMATH LESSON!WTH!
ah!
ah!
ah!
it's social suicide alright,damn i seriously felt like crying when i got the form,wtf!means no more gym afterschool,no more coffee blah blah blah
oh god,but o wells,i shall psycho myself tonight that it's all for the better for my studies,(wahlaueh!)haha and since today was the last day of my afterschool freedom,guess where ive spent it,haha-gym!:D beloved pastime,sucks to know that i have to gym less from now on
):
oh wells,if possible i'll squeeze gym after freaking math
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
this week sucks,every week will suck will june(thats when the bloody math class stops)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
bloody no life;urgh but then again,you aint supposed to have a life when you're in sec 4,well it seems to me
three cheers to my bloody awesome nerd life starting tmr

(i might just be a math topper!)

reply;
priss-haha!nice righttt!cant seem to stop reading,hoho


hazel Y 6:23 PM |


Sunday, January 15, 2006


presenting my newly turned 21 year old brother!:D
haha just check out the photograph,was taken back on one of his birthdays,back when we were all residing in the bukit timah flat.if ya wondering why is he holding his head,well he aint posing,but he actually knocked the back of his head before my rents took the photo,haha how cute
i wonder how is he gna celebrate it,like he's the mummy kinda boy(not really cause he argues with my rents alot but..)he told me he'll never club,hoho!man my birthday would definately be celebrated in the club,21 years old lehh!
oh wells,
it's sunday!a real boring one,but am glad the week's over,wasnt a really fantastic one
did my gym session again and my dad's starting to drive me crazy!cause he said that it's a very important year for me now and i betetr had make it good.said he was gna control me and make sure i cut down on tanning(?!),gyming(?!) and going out(?!?!?) so far fetched huh,but heck,not gna really listen anyway

maybe soon you'll see a total change!maybe something

from this;

to

wow!

(haha for those who doesnt see any diff between the two pics,i was just trying to depict myself turning into some disgusting bookfreak
spent almost the whole day reading memoirs of a geisha,really really cool book,haha any book that manages to get me engrossed is a good book lah.but i reckon it has some kinda sleeping spell ohkay!most of the times im always reading the book till i dozed off eventually.wth maybe it's just the bed...
was looking through my photo folders for my brother's picture,and i saw many photos taken in year 2004 and early 2005,not gna mention who and what but i found myself missing everything again.): sucky feeling
been feeling random empty feeling during the phrase of the whole week,i wish it'll all go away.
and my tummy's aint any better,been feeling big,like the more i gym the wider my tummy goes,like something like this;


minus 3 quarts of the abs ):
feel wider and more buff,wasnt the feeling i was expecting,wna get those narrow slim bod like all the other blonde models around....................urgh ):
and my tummy's been getting those bloated shit lately?like i get this frikkin irritating bloated feeling after anythin i eat.damn its like im gna die anytime of some unknown disease-combination of depressing spells and stomach bloatedness
alright im off ta read more of the book!sure is addictive!
goodbye

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chris; haha yes!:D
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hazel Y 8:11 PM |


Saturday, January 14, 2006

ah,sunny saturday,im convinced that monsoon season had ended!:D
yay bring all the tanning sessions on
change of template!love the blinking heart!anyhows,did nothing much today cept that ive increased my gym workout,spent hours reading memoirs of geisha(bloody good book i must say) had a really sastifying seafood feast for dinner with my family,celebrating a day early for bro's 21st birthday.hmm i sure cant wait to turn 21 yrs old,supposedly the key lock age,haha how cool!:D
ohkay,nothing more ta talk bout,goodbye all!


hazel Y 9:27 PM |


Friday, January 13, 2006

what a sunny friday the thirteen


hazel Y 5:06 PM |


Thursday, January 12, 2006

today ive learnt howta
-walk like a lady
-sit like a lady
-stand like a lady
-eat like a lady
-speak like a lady
-behave like a lady
-my colours
deportment's so bloody fun!
i cant wait to get into the real world and become a businesswoman!haha one day i'll be one of you guys' boss!:D
anyway here's some shots of today!








hazel Y 8:08 PM |


Wednesday, January 11, 2006

listening to atomic kittens' someone like me;
it's mid week,for the first time in many days,the sun actually appeared for a short while!around late afternoon,man i sure missed the sun,miss tanning!): but hmm rained lesser today!:D yay
did cip today,went round punggol and collected helloads newspapers magazines,televisions,clothes,shoes,bags,dvd players,and even xmas tree(tho we aint really sure if it was relaly meant for us ta take along,but o wells)
bloody tiring i must say,charity work's tough shitta do man
but its quite a nice feeling ta know that there are actually some generous singaporeans around!
hmm went gym after school,burnt more cals today,but hmm been gyming three days consecutively,but i dont know why but the more i gym,the bigger i feel,wth sigh
but aint giving up till i achieve some great abs!am only half way through!
went over to gf's place after that,was supposed to help her match officewear stuff but haha we didnt really match anything in the end,): anyhows,caught disc one of some rather old movie-american beauty
not bad!though it's a lil sick!but interesting show,filled with weirdos and psychos!
got home from physics not long ago and yes!i finally received my cert of participation for sc marathon,heh more to comeee!:D
read some stuff online and im starting to feel guys are such urghhhh frikkin jackasses,well some
like urgh fuck off damnit!shallow sly fucking people,urghh just wish some would just rot in hell or somewhere further down dumb fucking asses
officewear's tmr!can hardly aniticipate!
alright,i wna go read books!


hazel Y 8:39 PM |


Tuesday, January 10, 2006

"Only"

I'm becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might sayI'm losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes I think I can see right through myself [x2]

Sometimes I can see right through myself
Less concerned about fitting into the world
Your world that is
Cause it doesn't really matter anymore(no it doesn't really matter anymore)
No it doesn't really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore
Yes I am alone but then again
I always was
As far back as I can tell
I think maybe it's because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself[x2]

I just made you up to hurt myself, yeah
And I just made you up to hurt myself
And it worked.Yes it did!

[Chorus:]
There is no you
There is only me
There is no you
There is only me
There is no fucking you
There is only me
There is no fucking you
There is only me

Only [x4]
Well the tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab
And I had this funny feeling like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone, I kept picking at the scab
It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut
But I climbed through
Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be,
and I can see things I know I really shouldn't see
And now I know why, now, now, now I know why
Things aren't as pretty
On the inside[Chorus]

Only [x8]
-Nine Inch Nails'
one of my current favourites,what lyrics
rainy tuesday!am pretty tired right now
few things i did today
-gymmed
-met cheryl,after so long!
-got my clothes for officewear,finally!
ohkay dont really feel like blogging much,goodbye!
hari raya haji


hazel Y 5:53 PM |


Monday, January 09, 2006

haha so my computer decides to work when i have nothing much to blog bout.
am currently listening to AquaL's Cant Get You Outta My Mind,an awesome depressing song
am currently reading a book that ive found in my bro's room,haha( i realised that he owns quite alot of good books) it's "Change your life in 5 days" by Peter Tan,haha the title sounds uber cliche huh but i feel the book really makes loadsa sense,speaks the truth and woah it sure can change anybody's life,only if they give it a shot though.
am three quarts done with the book and came upon this part which read;
"when you listen to depressing songs, your subconscious mind begins to register negative images of life.sadness,sorrow and misery cloud your subconscious mind.How are you going to live happily when your subconscious mind is filled with unhappiness? Unfortunately, many of you have been conditioned by yourself to fall in your life. We do it subconsciously by the things we do everyday,esp listening to music."
hmmmm is that why i get empty random feelings...?hello monday,
this week started off quite well,not experiencing any blues yet,heh school was hell boring,spent half of the day with cca,and guess what,im still a fencer!hohoho what a pleasant surprise i must say,thought i've been kicked out long ago.was even quite determined to get myself recruited inta library club or something.-_- hahaha wth right
and dental appointment with the school dentist went well,she said i had good brushing skills!:D said it was very clean,heh! ohh and i asked her bout my wisdom tooth,cause i was wonderin why the tooth kinda stopped growing,hahah she told me that i have up to eighteen years old for the teeth to grow fully.keeping my fingers cross that my jaws have nuf space for the teeth to grow!else i would haveta remove the tooth surgically :s noooooooooooooooooo!
gymed after school,went well too,one of the best workouts ever actually,haha worked four major areas of my bod,biceps abdominals thighs and the calves!:D red bull sure gives you wings!:D haha always drink one can along with a banana before my gym sessions.rushed back in time before my dad came home from work,haha the only reason why for the secretive behaviour is cause my dad pretty much dont like the idea of his daughter working so much and not eat nuff,claimed that if only the determination i have for losing weight was the same kind for my studies,then i would be a topper in class already.dang OH WELLS
been feeling a lil feverish ever since i came home though,dont know if it's the weather thats gotten ta me or am i just tired,but urgh even my right eye lid went swollen for no reason and i felt hot and throat hurts too,sheesh havent fallen ill in a long time and wouldnt want to anyway.):
oh,and ya know what? my right thumb's starting to hurt again!:( shit man,old injuries sucks.
weather's still bad bad bad!urghh adds on to the growing suntanning withdrawal symptons,haha! everybody should engage in a 2 hour sundancing session daily,haha so all the monsoon clouds would poof away!haha that's so bloody lame.
girlfriend went home early today,cause her stomach's been upset ever since saturday,poor girl.sure hope she gets better soon.
(else school's gna be so jksahdkjshkjdhaskjdhd boring!)
yay it's fashion week for project runway tonight!
"either you're "een" or you're "oute""
haha wendy pepper's face's really annoying i must say.
anw,
here's what im gna get myself obessessed with.
-gym!hahaha i already am
-study...? hahahahahahahahaha
-erm what else? sheesh
o wells o wells cheers to a better week for me!:D nothing more ta blog bout!
selemat hari raya to all.


hazel Y 8:28 PM |


Sunday, January 08, 2006

thank god it's sunday,this week totally sucked,ohkay,the weekends did.
rain's still here,reckon it really makes me feel even more down somehow,been having the usual random empty feeling again,ahhhh what's wrong with me
last night was good,laughed hell loads at gardens along with shyan and her group,haha great company,had im officially addicted to coffeebean's blackforest drink!it's kinda my happy pill,haha drank two cups yesterday,haha says alot bout how my day went yesterday.(gosh i even ate chocs last night alright,(all the fats?!) but the chocs didnt make me feel any better actually,hah)
damn damn damn,im having suntanning withdrawal symptons!i hate fair skin!and the weather aint getting any better,sheesh this sucks
im actually looking forward to tmr's lessons,haha well,kinda decided to try ta take my studies more serious and focus only on that and nothing else.hope this much needed willpower doesnt die off anytime soon!
gym during lunchtime,was great,prob cause all the stress?great drive to workout!heh did loadsa crunches and loadsa of the abs machine,haha see abs getting backta shape,think it's one of the only better things that happened to me this week
anyhows,i needta get a bath right now!and am gna do tution homework,hahaha yes nerd tan!:D
goodbye


hazel Y 2:06 PM |


Thursday, January 05, 2006

i cant believe im listening to Britney,haha and i actually find "breathe""...or "breathe on me"...?uber fing sexy,haha o wells
it's thursday,which means three days of sec 4 school life's coming to an end and yes!weekends are approaching.lessons started today and it was manageable!haha ive decided to be a cheena piang for this year and tryta get a b for chinese(oh god)
first day of school was uber boring!except for the part we gotta see each other again after the hols,haha everybody looked pretty much the same. my heart totally goes outta this year batch of sec ones,haha they all hafta wear the prototype uni,but hmm guess they dont really mind, haha still all innocent minded kiddos
am loving the new socks!haha it's ankle!:O finally.
weather's been pretty bad recently,poured just now,got caught in the rain cause i was doing my rounds in gardens,find running in the rain's quite enjoyable!very very cooling.was actually able to run quite a dist until the drizzle persisted and got heavier so took shelter at one of the bus stops and met this fellow jogger.started talking to me and found out she's a rather vivid runner,ranned 29083982 marathons and she told me all bout it,and invited me to join her run club,and according to her,they actually run 18k on the weekends.wth!sheesh cool lady and the wow fact is that she's in her fifties.my mum's younger and she'ss already looking like in her 70s.-_-"
hmm running does keep ageing away!hohoho she told me i should try 21k this year.(!!!) oh wells
headed to marina square just now and bought that top form esprit,their current season collection's not bad!:D surprising.
alright i needta take a bath!am freakin drenched!
goodbye all!


hazel Y 7:41 PM |


Tuesday, January 03, 2006

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i cant believe my computer's working,well well
first day of school went easy,did pretty much nothing
afterschool was better,got stuff added to my neverending wishlist :s
and am having some really bad tuesday blues,sigh.
alright am gna sleep them off,i hope wednesday'll be better.


hazel Y 10:54 PM |


Monday, January 02, 2006

resolutions
1.train till i get some sexy abs so i'll can ditch tee shirts or singlets and do my runs in sports bra and shorts only,haha!
2.grow at least 2cm taller(so i'll mean loadsa skipping to be done!)
3.pray more hmmmm
4.study harder,and make sure i get inta jc
5.be ultra tanned by june
6.be better daughter(was one of the unfufilled 2005 resolutions)

and i cant think of others.o wells,countdown was pretty,the fireworks that is.bloody good man,bf video taped them!:D and i didnt expect so many people ta head to esplan actually!the whole road was so packed!haha uncle place before meeting bf,had couple of glasses of wine and went all red after it,man i suck.
and had mini celebrations yesterday night,was rents' 23rd wed anniv.haha man i have no idea how they managed ta stay together after so longggggggggg?! like how they dont look like loving fellas at all.
anyway,aint using my computer again,shyan's this time.we went stationaries shopping!hoho
bought file,pencil case,pen pencil lead file earrings earstick,coffeebean tumbler hairclips hoho
all ready for school!
so here's wishing all an uber great 2006!


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